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For You [Aug. 23rd, 2015|10:06 pm]
“Maybe we are people
Tangled in a complicated relationship”

He started to become more aware of the little things that Yunho do.
Things like his smiles, his hugs and his laughters.
The way he says “Good morning Jaejoongie” and the warmth that it brings.
Things that have the ability to tug on his heart strings.

“Sometimes like a couple, sometimes like strangers
Can we keep living on like that”

As their schedules become more hectic due to their rising popularity, they got on more and more shows. That meant they got lesser and lesser time together. When they got on shows, Yunho is their diplomatic leader. Someone who has to protect their group, the group that he couldn’t and wouldn’t let anything jeopardise it.

That includes their relationship.

“Despite countless mistakes and separations
You are still there”

“Yah! Jung Yunho! Who do you think youuuu are? Yah!”

He was fussing and kicking when Yunho had carried him back from the pub. He felt like a fool because being drunk was the only way he knew to express his angst. He couldn’t do that when he was sober. He understood where Yunho was coming from, and it’s his understanding that sets him in conflict with himself. He understood, but he still couldn’t help but feel frustrated with the situation. Yunho could only hold him in his arms.

“Why am I hurting so much because you..”

“My rough mind and unstable expressions
And you watching it”

They have been screaming at each other alot. It might be because they were all overworked or because they were worried about the public responses for their new album after a hiatus of 18 months. Or maybe because they were worried of losing fan, but for Jaejoong it might be because he had come to realise that Yunho and him might not work out anymore.

His throat tightens at the thought of it. For the past two years, they were so high in love. He used to think that each other was all they needed. It was easy in Japan, they knew not many of the people there. They were away from everything familiar - friends, family and parents. Also, with their three dongseangs so accepting and supportive of them, it’s easy to think that the rest of the world are going to be the same.

But they are not.
There were pressure from both sides of their parents’. They knew that something was going on between them and they had tried subtlely to let both of them know about their stands with regards to their relationship.

Jaejoong really envies Yunho’s strength in the midst of this. Many times just with Yunho grip on his hand,calms Jaejoong down from those outbursts that stem from his insecurities. Yunho understands what Jaejoong is feeling, he understood him in his totality. He just wished that Jaejoong could have more trust in their love and have more trust in him, because he would and could let nothing happen to their relationship.

“That is a love like a war”

Yunho didn’t have any words as he came back to the empty shared dorm.

But all he remembered was I couldn’t do this anymore and Jaejoong’s tear-streaked face from that night.

“Because I'm dangerous, because I love you
I will leave from you
I will leave for you”


AN: Heavily inspired by Jaejoong's performance of For You He sung this when they had their first concert outside of TVXQ. It was so heart wrenching and the lyrics were very Yunjae-ish to me. Just imagine (humour me) if one of the main reasons why JYJ had to leave TVXQ was because of Jaejoong's insecurities towards Yunjae's relationship, this song fits into this scenario. I had so much feelsss after listening to it a week back and I knew that I had to write this and get it out of my system.
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More than what you would ever know [Oct. 18th, 2011|01:07 am]
Title: More than what you would ever know
Pairing: yunjae
Category: K-Pop.
Length: One shot
Genres: Fluff, romance.
Rating: PG-13

Summary: A highschool fic with both Yunho and Jaejoong being very popular ;)

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(no subject) [Jul. 8th, 2010|05:37 am]
Title: You were my world
Pairing: Yunjae ♥ 
Length: Short oneshort (456 words)
Genre: Angst, romance
Rating: G

Summary: Jaejoong thought that if he doesn't have him, he won't lose him.

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